My gosh this has been a long time coming! My wheels are feeling a little rusty, but I’m excited to be back and have so much to share.
So much has happened in these last few years! It’s so hard to believe that it’s even been that long since last I wrote. Wow! Let’s see; I’ve acquired several more children, accomplished some major accomplishments in my sport, made some tremendous life and personal changes, been through some arduous struggles, and along the way I’ve found some amazing friends.
After all of that, here I am! I’d like to say a whole new me, but actually it’s just me. The real me. Simply me, if you will. You see, what I’ve discovered or more rediscovered is the me stripped down, layers removed, titles and labels and all the garbled up clutter gone. I can’t tell you how freeing it is!
When I first created this blog, three years ago, it was my intention to share advice and tips about uncomplicated healthy living. I wanted to help people learn to live a healthier lifestyle with simple, easy to do tips. If you read through a few of my old posts, you’ll see I veered away from that a little. So it may seem.
You see without realizing it at the time, I was already on to what it really takes to be successful in making healthy choices daily, in being successful PERIOD really. I spoke about love and gratitude, aaaaaaand birthday parties. lol
Then I went dark. Things in my life started getting complicated. We had taken in a new foster child, that turned into a few more, that turned into adoptions, that turned me into a mother of six! A mother of six that is always on the move, running kids back and forth to school, sports, appointments, etc, etc, etc. Oh my gosh! and laundry and dishes and cooking and laundry and more laundry!! All while I’m training and competing in Obstacle Course Races, and taking online courses, and trying to keep and clean home, and trying to be a good wife, and trying to be a good mom………..and on and on and on UNTIL….
Until it started to all fall apart and unravel. I didn’t feel healthy anymore, I didn’t feel happy anymore, my house wasn’t getting clean, my children were getting loved on, my husband wasn’t getting loved on, my training wasn’t as intense, my cooking wasn’t what it once was. I was feeling more and more drained and more and more empty. I was losing sight of my passions, my goals, my desires, of me.
You see, I had buried myself with the burden of so many labels. Smothered myself with too many “hats”. I feel that women tend to do this often. Men too to a point, but I believe it’s more predominant among women. I had gotten so focused on being a good mom, a good wife, a good student, a good friend, a good daughter, a good sister, a good athlete, a good christian that I had completely forgotten how to be a good me.
An epiphany came to me while out hiking just the other day. I was truly on to something when I first created and titled this blog, Simply Kristine. This is what it’s all about. The simplicity of just being you.
As any help book will tell you; you can’t do anything really well when you are trying to do too many things at the same time. Lord, I’ve found that to be so true! With all the jobs, and titles, and labels, and duties that I had assigned myself came different identities I thought were necessary for that particular role. When you’ve stacked up all those different identities and personalities and roles, how can you possibly know which one is the real you? I didn’t anymore.
If you don’t know who you really are, how can you expect your spouse, friends, family or anybody else to know either? If you don’t know who you really are, how can you truly love yourself? How can you truly feel gratitude? How can you truly know happiness?
You see, I’ve found that in my years of personal training and more recently health coaching; I’ve discovered that the number one reason so many fail with diets and exercise programs is that they don’t value or love themselves enough to truly commit, to put forth the effort. It’s really kind of a crazy cycle. We tell ourselves that we’d be happier with ourselves if only we were a little thinner, a little healthier, a little wealthier, etc. etc. etc. But we fall flat because we don’t love ourselves enough to work harder, to move out of our comfort zones, to stay on track, to follow through.
So, I propose this!! Hang with me awhile while I continue on my own personal journey to peel back the layers and rediscover who I am. Simply. Me. It’s my hope that through my own personal discovery I may help you with yours. In the end, when we find out who we are may we fall in love. In that love may we find the courage, strength, tenacity to achieve our dreams and goals.
Oh!! and yes, I plan on continuing to offer some health tips along the way 😉